Boys II Men

So one day my mom told me some pretty heavy news, My brother got a girl pregnant (at least one of us can procreate!).  I was so sad for my brother, thinking his life is over.  A few months later I got a call that his son was born in Arizona where his girlfriend lived at the time. It would be about a month before i met little Jacob, I came home one night and there he was, a perfect beautiful baby boy, he took my breath away.  A few months later the whole family was back home and I got to see my little guy everyday.  I couldn’t get enough of him, he was just such an amazing creature, bright red hair and a look of old wisdom across his sweet face.  He was sensitive from the start, always looking you in the eye.  One day when he was about 2 1/2 I was crying after a fight with my boyfriend and he looked right at me and said “Kakie (pause) hold my hand” it melted my heart.  Later a brother came along, equally unplanned, and some how my heart grew.  He was a fusy little guy who only wanted mom.  He was a sad victim of sentimental parents that refused to cut his hair for the first 2 years of his life somehow leaving him with a blond mullet, despite much protest from his favorite aunt. He later started to like the rest of us and found much love. I was often mistaken for his mom, which was funny as I looked about 15 when he was born.  Some how with out me looking we gained a special connection, a closeness and similarity that goes without explanation.  The brothers had a rough start, Jake being a bit jealous and at some point pushing him off the bed at 3 months of age. They  managed to create this silent connection, a bond held only between the two of them, a fact that makes me happy.

I can’t be more proud of the way these 2 have grown up, they’ve been challenged in their young life but live with a kind heart.  I hope to always foster confidence as I feel sometimes it’s lacking. I wish there was a way of letting them know how amazing they are with out it being said  because I’m the aunt.  I hope they know that they came into the a family and gave it life.  I have to say there pretty cool and I’m happy to have their love, it is something very special.